Well good morning, happy Soul Sips on Sunday. For all you water drinkers, you beautiful, beautiful water drinkers, cheers to you today!
Anything, whatever fills your soul, and whatever feels wonderful to you is all that matters. It doesn’t matter what he said, she said, they said, it said, was said – it’s what you feel deep inside. And I’m speaking this way because, it’s my birthday! You’re watching this not on my birthday because I intentionally went off social media and turned my phone off, other than today. Today I said I would communicate very minimally but I did want to remember today, so I thought this might be the best way to do it for now. There are a few other ways you might hear about in the future.
But, I’m at a beautiful place. I’ve literally removed myself from everybody, and here I am in this gorgeous, gorgeous space. And I looked around the property this morning for a special space that I could just go do some yoga. I kind of do yoga in a very unique way, and I just wanted some privacy but I still wanted to be able to feel the water and the sunshine, and I listen to very energizing music when I do my yoga, but through the movements and the music, I find it brings me to a very interesting place emotionally.
And so, I decided not to put my sunglasses on before I spoke to you because, oh look a piece of bark! Shows how much in the wilderness I am, well not quite wilderness but anyways, it’s a nice wilderness. Anyways, anyways, let me get back.
So it’s my birthday, I wanted to connect with nature and do some yoga and I was listening to music and I became quite emotional. And I just said, ah, you know, boy it’s been quite a ride the past fifty years and I feel, I don’t always like to use this word, sometimes I feel like a lot of these words get overused, but when it’s with the intention, as a very special person in my life says, “their intention goes a long way”. So does mine, to me.
I feel extremely blessed. I feel extremely grateful, at this moment in my life to be turning fifty and to be able to embrace my life, all the bumps, all the ugly green monsters that come out, and all the joy that has, been, landed on my lap. That I have created and that I have seeked.
And so here I am, in this beautiful space and it’s just like, Ahh, unbelievable, and I lie my mat down, and this is like, I do believe it’s, and I’m going to say it wrong, but there’s one of these lathrum? And you walk this path and it’s very very cool. Anyways, I decide to put it my mat, lay my mat near it. Anyways, my mat is blue. And as I’m sitting here, doing yoga and crying, I look around and go, I’m going to try and zoom in for you. Those are those spiky weeds and I have bare feet. And I said to myself, isn’t this an interesting metaphor that I’m going to leave you with.
I’m on my island, my blue, my beautiful ocean blue island. And I’ve chosen today to do me. And I’m choosing to do the next half on my life with me. First. And I’m on this island and I think about all of the times when I’ve been surrounded by piles of people or maybe even just one person that is very special to me, and I’ve felt lonely. I can be with people, but I can feel lonely.
And that, if you know what I’m talking about, is an awful feeling. And here I am, choosing to be alone on my birthday, my fiftieth, sitting on my island, and I’m surrounded by spiky spikes. If I step my bare feet off of my mat, it’s going to hurt. And I thought, I couldn’t be happier. And I’m at a place, in this moment, just in this moment today, just for this moment, that I’m at such peace and joy that I would wish for you, for everyone. But then I cried.
And I think about those spikes and I think about being on this island, and I think about my past fifty years, and I think I’ve done some fun things, some really fun things. I’ve accomplished some things, in the materialistic world, and that’s great. I did those things and I don’t regret anything – anything in my life because I do know that even the ugly, those muddy ditches that I hung out in for awhile. I know that they were very important for me to grow and to dig myself out of.
But as I sit here and some tears come down, they come down because I was so blessed to have four amazing children. For whatever reason, they came really easy, I carried them pretty easy, they came out pretty easy. I don’t know if they would say the past twenty-three to seventeen years has been easy, but I couldn’t feel more grateful and joyful and excited to me those four humans’ Mom, and to have the privilege to watch them evolve, and grow and thrive, and be contagious.
As always with my stories, and my moments, some say it’s coocarahy, but as always, I hope that part of my story, whether you have children or not, that I hope you find your space on that island and that you’re not lonely, that you’re full with your love for yourself, for your purpose. You don’t have to know what it is, but you’re here, you’re here for a reason, and for your joy, create it.
Cheers.