Lately I’ve been talking so much about getting outside of your comfort zone. It’s not necessarily a push but it’s just more the question of why? Are you fearful of something? Are you worried about someone’s reaction? But yet you have this gurr inside your stomach that, “I really need to do something”.
And, um, and I just looked down at my arm and I look at this tattoo on a regular basis – clearly, it’s right there. And it was actually this weekend seven years ago, that I made a decision to do this tattoo. I was training a client that had a beautiful script on her forearm and I do believe it said, “lovely” and it was what her Grandmother had always referenced her as. And it was just the script and it was just so beautiful and it was the first tattoo that I, uhh, just fell in love with.
And I don’t know, wherever I was at that moment in my life, I just wanted, I was very, empowered and focused on protecting and taking care of my kids, like uber, um, I was uber intense about it. And anyways, a buddy of mine who has a sleeve, I said, where’d you get your tattoos, and he sent me to a place in Kingston and I went and got this tattoo in 2013 I think it was. Yeah.
Anyways, you know when you think of things and you just have this gurr and you’ve got this thing in your gut and am I going to regret it. Well when I came back and I showed my Dad, he said, “Andrea, I’ve got a tattoo eraser, a special tattoo eraser that you can use to get rid of that!” He wasn’t thrilled but again, I was 43 years old, um, but, and I know that it’s out there and it’s not something that I’m going to be able to erase, and it’s when I lift up my arm, and I kind of do this, you see it. But I LOVE it! I LOVE IT! LOVE IT! LOVE IT!
Not one moment have a regretted this, and what this says is, “BelieveJACS – Josh, Alex, Cam, Soph.” And it was just a fluke that that heart worked out in the middle. And I wrote that for myself because that word “believe” is, well, it’s everywhere. But it was and is the base, of my thoughts towards my children, to believe in yourself, to move yourself forward in whatever way you feel you need to move yourself forward. It’s not about me, and it’s not about my acceptance, and about my cheering you on, it’s about what you need and about what you want.
But it was on my body and it was also a reminder for myself to continue to believe in myself, to believe in my voice, to believe and trust in that path that I’m taking and even if people around me are not necessarily accepting of it, it’s okay, ‘cause it’s mine, and “JACS” gets to do their thing to. My job is to just sit back and cheer them on, and love them the best I can.
So if you’ve got something gurring inside of you, I really encourage you to take the steps forward to fulfilling whatever that gurr is. ‘Cause we really only do live once!